I dug up my old files and found this. This is the inspiration for my new and improve blog. This is not a whole story, just random lines that I wrote when I was still a field GM.
Angels are caring and gentle by nature, thats probably Humans loved angels, its a different kind of love that they have for their gods. Many wished to see an angel and to have one by their side. But Angels are probably the loneliest creature in this world, the God created a world just for them, a world were they could roam and play and observe the humans.
WHere do fallen angels go? Are they still wanted, even if thier wings are broken? Who would want fallen angel afterall fallen angels are uselss without their wings...
Lilith, you are a fool." "Yes, I'm aware of that, but if my foolishness would make someone happy then I'm proude to be one.
And there she all alone and trembling. She locked up her soul and threw away the key, hoping that someone may find it and free her again but also hoping that it will be lost forever so that she will never be hurt gain.
Lucien, remember what the elders say I you love someone you should be happy for him if he is happy? You're happy coz you found a new angel, I should be happy to but why am i crying? - Confessions of A Fallen Angel
Where am i? the prairie is gone, and replaced by the ugly window facing the busy city, I realized, it was only a dream , i don't live there anymore, and i can't go back there ever again. I looked myself in the mirror, I see my broken wings, it reminded me what i was before. I was an angel, but not anymore, i was casted away from my homeland, afterall an angel with broken wings is useless.
I did not have a place to go, no one would accept me, I was forced to live amongst the humans.
"Stop dwelling on the past my dear Lilith, move on and look forward to the future." "How can I move on when everything I had was in the past, and lost them in the present, I have nothing to look forward in the future!"
I had a dream that turned into a nightmare, Lucien left me, he found another angel. Then I asked myself, "Did I fail him? Did I make him unhappy? Why did he leave me?" I woke up crying, I went to him and asked, "You will never leave me right?" "No, my darling Lilith, I wont." Those words still etched inmy mind, it was just a dream, I never believed it. But I guess it was a warning I was too late, it came true, he really left me for another angel...
They say dreams are warnings, I was a fool not to believe in it. Now the Gods punished me for not heeding to their warning...
Gabriel, do you really you love her? If you are sure of what you feel, the you have my blessings, but if have any doubts, then leave her, I don't want Elizabeth to suffer the same fate as mine. Don't do to her what Lucien did to me.
Lucien was her sun, loosing her sun, means facing the darkness, death. Her false hopes for Lucien's return is what keeps her from falling into death's hands.
Sarah hugged her friend and said "It's sad, the only one who could dry your tears was the one who made you cry in the first place."
Sarah tried to comfort her, but alas, Lilith finally gave up and surrendered to Death's calling, she slowly vanished in front of Sarah's eyes.""I'm tired my friend, please tell him that even if i'm not here i'll will always be at his side"
Lucien, you are the reason why I kept on living,loosing you means loosing my reason to live, goodbye my Lucien, I hope you will be happy with her. I'll be with you forever, in spirit.
Xie, Do you know the reason why we live? What would you do if you lost that reason? DO you think God would forgive me if I lost the will to live?
I wish you all the best Gabriel, sadly I can't be here anymore, I decided to give up and watch him from above....
And so with that, Lilith, drifted deeper into the empy space that her troubled heart has created. Will she come out of it again, we will there know.
Lilith gave up the reality and decided to sleep for eternity. Her sorrows and pains kept haunting her and gave birth to a new Lilith, an angel with black wings.
Michael was shocked to see her friend.Lilith looked the except for the black wings and a dark aura sorrounding her. She shooked her and said "Get a hold of yourself, Lucien is not coming back, you have to move on!" Lilith just gave her a blank stare.
"How could you do this to me Lucien?""I
accepted and loved you with all my heart, when the demons of your past came to haunt you, I stood by your side and made sure that you are safe." "You told me that you loved me too, but why did you leave me?"
Michael and the others could tell that Lilith has changed, her great loss changed her dramatically, she is no longer the kind, sweet and compassionate. Her heart is now full of hatred, anger and depression, and no trace of the Lilith that they knew.
Sensing the his friend might do something. Ecanus followed Lilith. Unaware that someone was following her, Lilith continued to look for the angel who took Lucien away from her.
Lilith's reason for living had changed, she is now living in hatred, she came back,to see Lucien kneel in front of her and beg for mercy, beg her to accept him again, it might take long but she doesn't care, anger has overtaken her soul, given her strength to live and see that day...
I just write them down as i go along. When ideas pop into my head in the middle of my work, I just write them down and save them. Hopefully I can write a full story next time. But there is one problem, I can only write when I'm dpressed, so I have do be depressed in order to continue that. And being depressed is bad.... >.<
